As a child, you learn, maybe, to accept the fact that your parents are people too, in order to shield yourself from all the disappointment. By telling yourself “They’re people too, they’ll fuck up” the things they do don’t hurt so bad. Sometimes however, they just don’t give a fuck. They take your maturity for granted and use it as an excuse to shrug off parental obligations.
People tend to think kids are the needy, deceitful, manipulative ones.. You haven’t met some of these parents hey. Some parents will shamelessly rob their kids of the beauty of youth. Teach them to hate, to belittle..pass their venom onto them. Use them for their own selfish bullshit.
Oh but let the child attempt to get out of it..To stop being a pawn..To no longer carry them.. The child is “ungrateful”, “doesn’t understand”, is getting involved in things that “aren’t their business”.
There’re a few things that I hate about this family shit, and I hardly ever use the word “hate”.
I don’t like that these people feel like you owe them your time, energy..And that they think they can take it and it’s whatever. That you’re somehow indebted to them simply because of a surname/DNA/your gender etc
I don’t like the expectation.
I don’t like the forced bonds.
I don’t like that sometimes, you can’t do anything about anything, for whatever reason.
I don’t want it. I don’t want to have relationships forced on to me.
I don’t like cooking when I’m not hungry. You’re hungry, fix that.
The “has your father eaten?” question like he isn’t able bodied. I don’t know.
The fact that the men will sit, the whole day on a couch, waiting. For food, for attention..anything..Just waiting. And it’s fine.
The “You can’t do that/act that way, you’re a woman” shit.
But most of all..
That everyone, everyone wants to create you for their own personal, selfish reasons.
Man, I hate this shit.
They also don’t know how to leave people alone. They smother you with their mess and call it love.
I hate always having to tell people where I am or where I’m going..It doesn’t matter. I’m gonna lie anyway.
“Where were you?” Does it matter? Am I dead?
These people that you’re born with aren’t always your “family”. Fuck around and end up trying to learn to love toxic people.
They don’t go away, they don’t leave you alone, they don’t let you grow [into what you wanna be].
I am mad as shit at shit I never discuss. Seething.
– Courtesy of my Twitter timeline. A bit crude, I know. But I was rather bothered.